Oh yes! I have given myself a spending ban. Not because I am skint, or because I have clothes spilling out all over the floor of my dressing room and my once was ironing board has now become a jumble of non ironed clothes, to scavenge through to find one item and one item only to iron for that one day! (pahhahaha! who are you kidding? it so is like that!!!). But no the real reason is because boundaries and knowing ones limit. Right now I have and I am very fortunate for having the ability to run amuck in Primark if I wanted to or even splash out in Topshop/ River Island. (Reality is Top/RI aren't my choice of shops to buy more than one item at to be honest!) but I could and I shouldn't is the point! Why? because frankly its true my dressing room/ study is a tip! I have beautiful shoes that once sat perfectly on their shelf. That I think are now cowering so glad they're up high out of the way from the chaos below of the cheaper and flat shoes in a towering jumbled up mess. Also my spare seat & ironing board have become a "it's not on the floor so it doesn't count as untidy right?!?" space. Getting off the point now I don't need anymore clothes, maybe some shoes.... ooo yes could do with some nice... NO Charlotte! bad Charlotte!. I've become accustomed to going out shopping, impulse buying and making me feel good for about a couple of hours. Ooo the warm happy feeling that glows inside of me when I know I have a bunch of bargains stuffed in my bags. I was never a girl who liked shopping when I was younger. I use to dread if my friends asked me to come shopping as I was such an awkward size, I was tiny! but tallish, so if they fitted my legs they were way too baggy elsewhere and visa-versa. So I started dreading going to the shops even with my mother I'd see nice things I'd love to wear and knew I'd look like a HB pencil trying to wear a Red ink pen lid. A bit weird and frankly something to stare at and wonder what does the owner think of?!.
That's me unhappily banned from shopping in cute, quirky shops like this one :(
Now however I am much happier with my size, yes!!! I seriously do have my down days. Where my legs look too skinny and for some reason I believe my slightly bandy legs look very prominent today, or my chest is a big issue for me most days. But I am getting better, I am finding what fits me better and what suits my shape and accentuates my good bits. Therefore shopping has become a comfort blanket on my bad days. I feel like one of those girls who love shopping in films or books. woohoo!!! but not woo for my bank when I really want to purchase something more worthwhile and expensive. Finding my recent 7billion dresses I bought to have eaten that up and half of them still have the tags on from last christmas!
Hence the spending ban, for one month I am going to try and not spend any more on poop!. I live with my partner not my mum so obviously food and toiletries doesn't count, I ain't going to run out of deodorant and think nahh i'll risk smelling like a skunk for a few weeks because of a ban!. Nuh-uh I mean going cold turkey on the clothes, accessories, make-up and home ware items for a month and... because of the fun of it I am going to take you along with me. So hey if your attempting a spending ban in the month of august, let me know!! or let me see by a link! I will let you know how I'm doing through maybe vlogs (maybe you'll see me pining like a puppy dog at a pretty outfit in a shop window) or a long-ass blog post like this one!. But if you want to follow me along the way and give me support why thank you! big hugs!.
So for now Au-revoir,
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Love Yah
Charlotte
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